Good morning, or whenever you get this.
I honestly do not feel anything this morning, other than to just rant.
The series of events that has happened this year came with lots of betrayal, backstabs, cruelty , loss and grief.
And I wonder if it just took all of these. I mean, all of these. Having to lose everything that mattered to me, before I find my purpose and realize that this is where I should be.
Sigh. Sigh.
If I were to restart this year, maybe I shouldn't have made that one call. I shouldn't have went on that travel. I shouldn't have... I shouldn't have...
I have lived the largest part of my 20 years on earth in depression and living for other people. And these people! These people ruined my existence.
My days are numbered now. Maybe, maybe not. But these early morning tears won't cease to come everytime I wake up to the reality of my loss.
Moving forward, I think Pleasure Republik is still my only solace. So, let's restart the year and reshape the goals.
Happy New Year.
How has the year been for you though?